Why like that...?

Trying to feel the inclusiveness but was ignored.

Never mind.. I shall pretend everything is okay. Sorry.

*fades into the background*

I have no idea why i always let myself fall into such situation. And having such thoughts is not healthy at all. I must learn to control it.  My past bad experience really impact me in a big way.  N is the wrong way.

Snap out of it!!

Déjà Vu - the past is here to haunt me

I am having this feeling of Déjà Vu.

Crap!

What the fuck is wrong with me?!

I talk to a few and got the same answer.  Well I shall let nature take its course.  No use thinking too much.  

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明天会跟好！

Money vs Friendship or Vice versa....

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I am beginning to feel that some of my friends are slowly keeping their distance away from me becos they feel that since I m working part time (read: no money), they stop asking me out anymore.  Not even a simple meet up for coffee or a simple meal at an affordable place.   They do not like the idea of always on a budget with me around.

They are working and earning a steady salary, so they have every means to go nice places, shop and eat.  But I am NOT in poverty.  I still can spend within my means.  So what is the big issue here?   And the funny thing is, some even pity my husband.  Eh, my husband got complain or not is between me and him.. who are you to question me?  If I question you about your spending habits and pity your husband.. don't think you will like it either! Maybe you won't show but behind me sure bitch about it.. like what I am doing now (guilty as charged) Yes bitching,  EVERYBODY does that.  Close friends too.  Is human nature.  So don't lie and say don't have!

SO now the problem is:  Why I do not want to have a full time job?  Is not that I don't want..is more like I am looking for a good opportunity and also along the way if I can really find something I can do and I love the job and earn me some money, I will be very happy with it.  I do love to have lots of money to spend, I love shopping, I love to eat good food everyday...but since I made a choice to take it slow...please have some respect for me, can?  Mutual respect is important, u know? I know that you all feel that I should lessen my husband's burden financially.  But at least I never expect you all to pay things for me. I have self awareness...I am not shameless.

Yes I do UNDERSTAND where you are coming from, my friends, but do you understand me?  Obviously is NO.  And I am done explaining.  So if this is going to be a cause for the drifting apart and gap then I am really sorry...not sorry for myself but rather sorry that you feel money is more valuable than our friendship.




*Disclaimer:  I was supposed to publish this post long, long time ago.  But I forgotten about it.

CB friends and LJ friends...

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I believe most of you sure got such people in your life every now and then.  Well, I have many.  And I am also somebody's CB friend or LJ friend too.  Yes, yes.. I know.   I believe is becos I do not how to make friends.

Those used to be close to me but now like strangers.  A lot of things happen in between too long to elaborate.  But I seriously learnt a lot from all these bad experiences with so called friends.  I thought I can be BFFs with them and maybe they thought I can be their BFF but I prove them wrong and they prove me wrong too.

I have learnt to be careful of who I spoke to and who I open up to.  Cos some people really can me feel they are my friends but actually they there just to see if I do anything stupid, say anything silly so that they have some thing to laugh at or just pass their time making fun of me secretly while giving the impression that they CARE about me.

I am a person who say what's on my mind w/o thinking of the consequences BUT that doesn't mean I did not choose my words carefully.  You must understand that how others interpret it, is NOT within my control.

This post is not about pushing blame.  And I am aware that most of you don't give a damn about what I say. 

Well, is okay.

Reminder to self that I do not have to apologize for being who I am.

Cheers and have a nice day to whoever is reading this.

To Hell with shitty friends...

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I am very happy now!  No more shit from shitty friends.  I choose to be a housewife and I love it!  I am proud of it!!


So what if I rot at home? At least I rot in my OWN home.


So what if I choose to work part time? At least I am NOT spending your money!


So what if you see my husband is struggling with his work? But what you don't know is, his company is doing lots of restructuring and changes and he need to take care of many stuff and staff but he is NOT complaining about me being a housewife.  So what gives u the right to go and talk to him about asking me to find a full time job?! If he don't mind, I don't think you should. You don't know what is call mutual respect and understanding and u dare to call yourself my good friends?!  *face palm*


So what if I am on a tight budget now?  At least I got money to eat.  Just that I have to control my spending and only when necessary.  What's wrong with that?  But you all take it as an excuse NOT to ask me out and you point fingers at me saying I am the one who refuse to go out becos you all always go expensive places (which is TRUE)!!  And even if you did ask me along, you never once thought to go foodcourt and eat.. why don't you all admit it that you cannot accept the fact of ALWAYS going to foodcourt??!! Bitch, please!  Are you all sociopaths or having split personalities??!!


I can go out with friends, have a meal, have a drink.. BUT just that I cannot spend A LOT (read: cannot enjoy good food).  But my ''good friends'' don't understand.


The ''good friends'' always thought that I am being paranoid about them bitching me.  But the fact is they ARE bitching about me sometimes.  When I retaliate, they say I am the one with problems.  Wow, they want to mind fucked me badly.


Frankly speaking,  those who read this must be thinking WHY i never voice out to them about all these resentments I have towards them.  The thing is I DID.  But they strongly feel that I am thinking too much WITHOUT even bother to talk it out with me and keep lecturing me about you can't expect this and that and ask me not be calculative.  DUHZZZ


Anyway I am done with them.   I am not someone who give up friendships so easily unless is really too hurtful for me to continue.  I keep trying my best to improve and make changes to myself for the sake of salvaging the friendships and in the end I get nothing but a lot of hurt...so I give up.

Time of the Month

I hate this period of time.  Feels so lousy even though I am not.  Feel so moody even though I am not.  Arghhh!!!!

I have to go thru this shit every month once ever since I started puberty but STILL I cannot get used to this.

Have to constantly tell myself is alright and nothing is wrong.  Relax and keep my mind busy.  Oh my...

One week of torture.  Damnit.

BOOOOOO !!!

I am sorry....

I did something which is very bad and unforgivable.  I let a friend wait for me for an hour and I fail to inform her about me being late.  It pissed her off and most probably she will never meet me again.  I don't blame her.

Is my fault that I took for granted the timings and also thinking I can make it on time.  I took for granted that others will wait.  I have no excuse or a good reason.  I totally deserve her wrath of anger.  I have no right to ask her to forgive me.  In fact when she tweeted that if all my other friends abandon me due to my lateness and I took them for granted?  I cried.   I cried as it suddenly dawn on me what kind of a person I am.  Is a awakening moment for me and i guess it is to late to realize it. Damn me... :(

Nothing I can say or do now can change the fact that my friend is angry with me.   And I really have this fear that she will ignore me forever which she has every right and reason to.

I MUST CHANGE THIS BAD HABIT OF MINE.  ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS.

I MUST PROVE TO MYSELF AND OTHERS I CAN CHANGE FOR GOOD.

Very Happy Cos......

Recently I meet up with my Primary Two Form Teacher and my classmate.  Sigh,  how times flies... is been 26 years.

Mr. Ang is still as jovial and his legendary thumb trick once cause a phenomenon in school, ha ha.  And Phillip, well what can I say..we are not best friend in class but I don't remember him bully me.. but appearance wise...  (-_-)''  Ooops in fact we all change in our appearances but I am still pretty and they are still handsome lah... LOL

Is kinda sad that I don't have much memory about primary school life and I remembered when I was Pri. 5 & 6 was the worst days of my life. I had a form teacher from Hell...Mr. Lim Sum Fatt, some of the classmates treated me like an outcast, call me names, etc.  I have no idea why they dislike me ='(  But overall primary school was still fun =)

I really hope to meet up with them again and also few more others.... 

Ok lah, I shall stop here... (',')

Very vexed....

Seriously I don't understand YOU sometimes even though we knew each other for close to 10 years (in between we did lost contact for some time).

You are no longer the friend I used to know.  Or is it that I have changed?

We have some issues before but we did have a talk over MSN.. but I guess is not good enough.  Now it seems that the friendship is no longer the same.  I did ask you about it but you said I am being sensitive and thinking too much.

But your actions speaks otherwise... knowing you are not the vocal type like me.  And now I feel that I am the Devil and you are a victim of me.  WTF

Now it seems that you intentionally trying to hide things from me in case I question you...Not that I m want to be intrusive.  It seems you do not want me to know what's going on with your life so much.  Does that mean you have move on to better things, better friends?  Should I be doing the same too?

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我很委屈！Feel so helpless...

I am sure many of us who took MRT train will know how fucking crowded it is at certain times especially if is peak hours, during weekends or holiday period.

Well, I was travelling towards Outram Park MRT station from Tiong Bahru Station today.  And I was kinda shock that it was extremely packed at 1.30pm.  When I boarded the train, I seriously have to squeeze my way in. NOT because I want to be an Ugly Singaporean and being Kiasu.  IT IS because people who are inside do NOT want to move in further and I am very near the fucking door, I might kena kiap.  Call me paranoid BUT it did almost happened to me before.  Yeah, is nothing new that the MRT trains are getting more and more squeezed. By right, I SHOULD have gotten use to it.... Sigh.

And there's where the ''FUN'' part starts.  I am VERY aware that I have a young child (maybe Primary 3??) and her mother behind me (I presume they are S'poreans).  So being a mother she is trying to protect her daughter from people who push around and might accidentally hurt her.  If I am her I will do the same too.  What is ridiculous is she keep using her arm to push my back AND I have no where to move away cos I am already very near to the door and surrounded by an old man and there is a old lady on my left side behind me...and I can't take it any more, I made a remark something like '' Stop pushing me, no space already''  

Obviously the mother shot back at me saying that her daughter is behind me and IF I AM A MOTHER I WILL UNDERSTAND.  The last part got me very annoyed, so I shot back: " I am a MOTHER too (bluff one lah)!  I know your daughter is behind me, don't worry I won't push her. There are many people around us.''  The mother still not happy say something back which I don't remember, damn it but I replied her: '' Please, the train is so crowded, what IF other people pushed me? Then how?''  And she keep quiet and I have reached my stop and I alighted.

Yes. Very stupid I know (-_-)''  I am at fault too. But I can't control crowds or part traffic, human traffic, in this case.  How can I guarantee I won't accidentally hurt other people .i.e step on people's toes or push people.. especially kids or old people? Or worse I am hurt by others.  

I am laughing at myself now for being silly earlier...FML.  Seriously the Gahment should do something to improve the current situation of overcrowded public transport (buses and MRT trains).   Is like everywhere I go and any time, always crowded. 

Maybe someone took picture of me already and post online to shame me but lucky I am in sunglasses and dress all black... Ooops  =X

Lazy, lazy me......

I was preparing my DIY manicure tools..so happily choosing colours and thinking of a theme for my nail art....

But then something hit me... LAZINESS (~_~)''

Choose all the things already...

End up only use these two..FML

Initially I really was feeling very enthusiastic about getting my nails done and stuff.  Like I mentioned earlier...laziness hit me.   

But not hard enough as I managed to finish this......

Tadah ! Very patronizing & not nicely done... sigh

Well, I guess that will do for tomorrow's property event launch at Ritz Carlton Hotel..thanks to @simontay78 for allowing me to tag along =D ..  Going to nom nom on free food ~

Hello All I Am Back.....

Yes..after a few months of hiatus, I am back to blogging or rather updating what's up with my life.  Nothing much really.  Been busy doing nothing constructive except some small DIY projects as and when I feel the inspirations coming...browse my fave blogs for some ideas on outfits, make up etc.. U know the usual stuff a girl like me would do (for those who know me).  And also some online shopping! =D

I bought a 120 colour eyeshadow palette.  Yes is crazy...cos I was thinking how the hell am I gonna try all the colours?!  Well, I will experiment and have fun with it.

And I did some customization on my Iphone cover... is mad cute!  Would love to add more bling to it.. but I am lazy =X.  I added some hearts, a silver key and some white and pink crystals on it..so it will look more classy.  =D

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I am also involved in Postcrossing .  This website allows you to create an account and you can send REAL postcards (which you can get from your local bookstores) to random people from different parts of the world via snail mail, and the best part is you get to received from others, if the person happens to get chosen to send to you.  Don't worry it is totally safe and private. So far I had received 3 postcards and I have sent out 5 as that's the max number you can send out till all your postcards are registered by the receivers, only then you can request for new addresses to send.  You might wanna check out the website yourself and find out more.  It is fun and you get to know new friends!  Just have to be patience, since it is delivered via snail mail, it can take up to 2 weeks before the other person gets it.  (-_-)''

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Ok that's all for now... I will save some for my next blog post.  =D

Violets are Blue But With False Lashes You Need Glue...

Violets are Blue But With False Lashes You Need Glue... by Hystericglam featuring metal rings

The colour Blue will be big in S/S2011. As well as pink, yellow,orange and green. This is just part one.

Is a new beginning....

Finally is the Year 2011.  Can't really tell now if this year is gg to be good... but I wish very hard it will be smooth sailing.


Year 2010 was quite fantastic.. but also alot of hiccups.  Hmm.. i guess it balanced out everything.  And I got married in June 2010 to a wonderful guy =D ..now that is something to be happy about.


Well since now is a brand new year... we should start things new .... Happy New Year !!  =D

A Sushi-licious X'mas.....

As you all know, X'mas is round the corner in fact is THIS weekend !!  OMFG !!  Ahem.. ok ok.. must contain my excitement abit.

I wanna ''teach'' you how to have a Sushi-licious X'mas. Sounds good, right?  So how are you gonna achieve that?  

Step 1 - Have your X'mas gathering at any Sakae Sushi outlet by ordering their Christmas Theme items.  Simple, right??

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My fave got to be that adorable Christmas Tree Wonder.. I don't think I can bear to eat it..Awww

And now for Step 2.  If you are having X'mas parties or gathering at home, you can order their party set and mix and match your own party trays! U can add some ala cart items as well and other side dishes or bento sets that you love.. Yum Yum =D 

And if you are an NTU student, Sakae Sushi even delivers to your hostel and you can have a gathering with your uni mates or friends !  

For more details, pls call up their delivery hotline NOW.

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There you have it, 2 very simple steps for a Sushi-licious X'mas !!  LOL =D

Merry Sushi X'mas Everyone !!

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Time flies....

Just when you thought you still have enough time, it fly past you faster than you blink.

And I am counting down to Christmas then New Year and Chinese New Year.. and a BFF's wedding dinner in February 2011 ....  I m starting work next week.  Is a 2 week temp assignment and with that money I can go shopping for Christmas and CNY's!!  LOL.. Retail therapy is always good, any time of the year =D

I m gg to be one year older next year... geez... Is time for me to give out ang baos instead of receiving.. cos am married..so I m officially grown up!  Suddenly remember this song... " I don't wanna grow up, I am a Toy 'R' Us kid ~''  LOL  That was so many years ago... Haizzzz  >,<

Counting down now..tick, tock, tick, tock...   

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Lonely, I am so lonely....

The title sounds sad, right?  But sometimes I really prefer to be alone. 

The date was 11/11/2010, time 2:59 p.m, here I am sitting alone in Sakae Sushi @ Wisma Atrium, Orchard Road.  Agenda: To have lunch.

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Previously, I wrote about attending a food tasting event invited by Sakae Sushi as they are launching new items in their menu.  Well, I am here at Wisma's Sakae Sushi outlet to relived the taste of the food. Oh yummy food, so yummy I almost could die and go to heaven....  

First thing, ordered a cup of hot green tea.  Contrary to popular belief, whereby people drink the green tea AFTER their meals, you should in fact drink it BEFORE (maybe half an hr) so that it can work well to block fats/oil.  I am not anyhow saying it okay. 

  

Anyway back to the Sakae Sushi topic.  I took out the Food Menu which was given out to the e-journalists during the food tasting for reference.  I ordered Maguro Carpaccio, Mushroom Kimuchi Tofu, Sakae Candle and Aburi Salmon Teriyaki.  But I am sad that Hotate Sushi is OOS on that day  (>,<).  Seriously, I would love to ordered everything that was stated in the Food Tasting menu but I do not have a stomach as big as the Universe, unless I want to risk bursting thru my seams.  NO WAY. Ironically I am able to finish everything during the food tasting simply becos is smaller in portion..and I was very hungry.. FML!

Now how can you have a food review with no pictures.. so here they are.. Go on, go ahead and salivate in front of your PC screen !! *slurpzz*

Mushroom Kimuchi Tofu - fried beancurd, assorted mushroom with kimuchi sauce

Being a sucker for spicy N sour stuff, I slurp up every bits of it !!!  

Maguro Carpaccio - thinly sliced half tuna with special sauce

Love the texture of it as below is lined with crunchy onion shreds, adds a unique aftertaste

Sakae Candle - avocado, Japanese cucumber, crabmeat, shrimp roe, codfish roe & mayo

**Pls do not consume the burnt pc of thing, which is the wick of the 'candle'**

(is suppose to look like the second pic when lighted up but I was too slow to capture it, so I 'cheated' and took the pic from the menu!)

Aburi Salmon Teriyaki - half broiled salmon with teriyaki sauce

I simply love this as it has a slightly burnt taste to it, weird much =D

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So what do you think of the new items? Have I teased you all enough to go try it out yourselves? 

If yes, please do visit any nearest Sakae Sushi outlet and bite off more than you can chew !!  

NOW!!

Surprise !!!

Oh noooooo.. I am going to have a surprise from Ben & Jerry's tomorrow.  I heart surprises ~ =)

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UPDATES!

Here are the surprises that I received from Ben & Jerry's Singapore last night (11 Nov 2010)

My goodie bag prize for the 'Wacky Line' contest in Facebook

And 2 pints of ice cream and is in my fav flavours.  

They can read my mind, yes they can! *moo moo with delight*

The ''Wacky Line'' contest is already over for some time now.  But I did not realize that I need to collect my prize at the Chunkfest in September.  Long story short, they deliver my goodie bag and also 2 complimentary pints of the abovementioned ice cream as a way of apology, right to my door step!  I am indeed very impress with their service recovery.  Alrite, cows ( Leon and his colleague) and Woody the Cow (mascot of Ben & Jerry's)...u r forgiven.  hahaha ~ =D    Love ya, Ben & Jerry's   *muacks*

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P.S.  I can't wait to savour the ice cream so I open up the Peanut Butter Cup tub and I was shocked that they are not stingy with their ingredients when it comes to making ice cream.

Look at the big chucks of Peanut Butter Cup chocolate, I have a strong feeling it is Reese's Peanut butter cups! I m in moo moo heaven already lah.. damnz..LOL

Here is a picture taken with Woody the Cow (their mascot) together with my niece.  Sorry for the lousy quality picture.  I was too excited to use my own better camera... whatever lah.. LOL

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Once again a BIG THANKS to Ben & Jerry's Leon and colleague and Woody the Cow !! Mooo ~~

Halloween @ *Scape Mall - Museum of Horrors

Went for the Halloween event @ the *Scape Mall, Museum of Horrors which was setup by Movie Mania (is an event company) as I had complimentary tickets. Start from 30th Oct - 3rd Nov, 11am - 11pm. (weekend, adult: SGD$12 (below 12y.o SGD$7), weekday,adult SGD$10, below 12 y.o, SGD$5).

Had lots of scary, silly fun there.  Basically screaming; laughing and screaming and more laughing LOL.  U can take lots of pictures with any of the displays, props, monsters, ghouls, ghosts..whatnots... LOL.  To be frank, I was being scare lots of times due to sudden movements by those people or rather the ''undead'' even though I know is not real.. FML.  Hahaha and I laughed at myself for being so timid.  Damn.

Saw some parents who brought in their kids and some of them were scared till crying. Traumatizing!  Seriously speaking, those children who need to be carried in arms or just barely learning to walk, is best they are NOT allowed to go inside.  I even saw people pushing baby prams.  The organizer(s) should set more stringent age limits for kids.

Well that aside, I really did enjoyed myself there with my hubby and friends celebrating my 1st Halloween. 

Below are some of the pictures taken there..

Me and donno who..LOL

I suppose this is where I belong in Hell.  My bodyguards: Cowhead and Horseface

Ah Yen, me and Zhong Kui, the Chinese version of Ghost busters, ironically he is a ghost too.

Oh no ~ 

My ''chopped off'' head together with my ''guts'' and all...Intestinally yours..LOL

Happy Halloween everyone!  Hope u guys enjoyed yours ~ =D  

Cheerios ~